i've become a statistic

hi blog, how are you?
so i've been back in new jersey for almost a week now and it is such an adjustment. moving back home with my parents, stressing out everyday about not having a job, unpacking, and everything. i've started to write like 4 times but never get beyond a few words.

and the weather didn't help. it was like high 60s and rainy most of the week, and when you're on the verge of tears well crappy weather makes you burst into tears more often.

my big project of the week was joining the ranks of the millions of american's who are unemployed. yes, i've become a statistic.  i had a lot of fun with the state of nj department of labor (and it only took me 4 days of calling) but i'll be getting more information in the mail this week of how to proceed. it was extremely frustrating to do and at the same time as i was calling, and calling it just kept reminding me that i wasn't teaching this year. and i would get upset. and then every time my dad called he'd be like so get through? and it was like adding salt to the wound. ugggh. i know it isn't my fault but having to register for unemployment just makes me feel like a failure.

i should find out by the end of this week if i'll be in dc this fall, so just waiting on that which is frustrating because i'd love to be able to make plans, but can't because i don't know where i'll be or what i'll be doing.

umm, i don't know what else. i'm just in a funk right now, but there are a few things making me smile.

this is one of the many things making me smile :) and i can't wait for the new season of glee & how i met your mother! yay! plus monday's rhonj renunion drama!


oh and tswift's new song. which i know i've talked about before. but I LOVE IT! like a lot. and the music video - soo cute.


and i've been running. it has been nice. i'm doing 9 miles tomorrow. the half-marathon is in 20 days!

and it is almost september. ummm, when did that happen? i'm not ready for fall yet.