back to nj....

hi blog. i've kinda missed you. i've opened up a new post about 4 times in the last while, but i just get distracted or realize i don't have much to say. so i'm back in new jersey for the foreseeable future. i'm trying to figure out what to do with my life. i absolutely hate that i don't have a job. it makes me feel worthless. i know it wasn't my fault that i was let go, but i was a great teacher. and i just hate that it is almost impossible to find a job. and i pretty much have to wait until the spring/summer to actually know anything. and i just hate that i feel i am in limbo right now.

i've been home a week. and it hasn't been horrible, but i just feel so lost. i subbed a few days, but i hate it. i don't like that i don't know if i'll be working or not, who knows what horror of a class i'll end up in. and the 3 days i subbed, i just was frustrated. i was 3rd grade yesterday and was just ahhhhh, by the end of the day.  and i was middle school phys ed on friday and i had never been more disrespected in my life by 6/7th graders. so we'll see how long this subbing thing will last. i can do 3 days a week with unemployment, and i think as much as i dislike it - it gives me something to do. i need to change my preferences though so i am no longer doing elementary school. i am not as patient as i used to be.

but i have had some fun. my last few days in dc were a blast. the end of cycle party was hilarious. and i needed an awesome night out like that. drinking waaaay too much, dancing, annie's story, talking about rowing, jeanette and i laughing about everything with ross, and having fun. i'm really going to miss a few of my dc favs.

mj and i 

jeanette and i with our tights!

ellie and i - i lived with her this fall. we had a lot of fun!

and i hung out with becca and we saw morning glory saturday night and it was adorable, i loved it. it was pretty funny, and it wasn't super chick-flickish/all about guys which i liked. so i recommend seeing it! and then sunday i went hiking with erin. we frolicked around high point state park and just enjoyed the gorgeous autumn weather!

erin2 hiking

highest point in nj

so just trying to keep myself busy and not freaking out too much about my life. i'm doing a massive room clean - like going through everything and hopefully getting rid of loads. i'm trying to become less of a packrat... we'll see. i'm buying a new bed soon, and well the fact that i'm living at home longer i'm trying to enjoy it, so new bed and a clean/less cluttered room will be nice.

and in fun news - prince william and kate are engaged! i am so excited. my shot at being a princess is gone, but i adore her and they are a great couple, so i wish them the best.

and rascal flatts new cd comes out today! so i need to make a trip to get the cd! yay :)