but i'm not ready to go.
i'm packed.
after struggling with the 3 bags and wrestling with them to get them closed. i can say i am packed. i still have a few things out - that will go into my carry-on. but i will not open up the 2 suitcases or my pack again because i honestly don't think i can close them again. it will also be interesting to see how much my bags weigh... i'm hoping only 1 is over the 50 pounds or maybe i'll get someone nice who will pitty me?
it still doesn't feel real.
i can't believe i am leaving.
it seems like it was just yesterday i was soooooooo excited about coming back and arriving in cork and who knew when i would be leaving - 2009 seemed so far away.
but in about 30 hours i will be sitting in an airplane and flying away.
tomorrow is going to be crazy - my to-do list is crazy. i have a bunch of last minute errands to run, meeting brenda for tea, sharon for lunch, popping into work and saying one last goodbye to the city all before 6. i'm catching the 6.25pm bus to shannon airport, spending the night at the hotel there and will be checking in at around 5.30 am for my 8am flight on tuesday morning. and arriving in new jersey at approximately 11.30 am on tuesday.
it is my last night in cork.
my emotions are allll over the place right now.
i hate saying goodbye.
it was weird walking through the city yesterday and today knowing it was going to be one of last times walking down patrick's, through the english market, popping into tesco, passing st. finbarr's... all the little things i do on a daily basis.
i think the weirdest thing is knowing the next time i'm back i'll just be visting. i was lucky last time to be able to come back to live. and especially after this time i've gotten to know the city so much better and i've made it my home.
i'm just hoping the transition is better this time than the last. i was on an emotional roller coaster for a year after i studied abroad (but a lot of that had to do with m...) but i'll be in conn this time next week. how crazy?!? and i am totally looking forward to it. i can't wait to start my job there, i have a stack of readings for the plane on whales and ships and i'm looking forward to having a car again. so while i'm not ready to leave, i am excited for the future.
it just doesn't feel real.
9 comments:
It really is so weird walking around a place you've been for SO long and spent so much time in, and then you have to say goodbye. But it will all be there, waiting for you to come back and visit. But it sounds like you've got the right plan- be sad about leaving but excited for the future.
Safe travels! Bon voyage!
I definitely understand the sadness of leaving a place, but the looking forward to what's in store for the future.
Safe travels, and hope it all goes well for you!
Have a safe flight back.
I can totally relate to your feelings - used to live in CA and then moved back to Germany. The last week was horrible...
My advise for the packing: put a large (and sturdy) grocery bag in one of your suitcases and have a couple heavy things packed where you can easily reach them. The last time my suitcase was overweight (like, on every trip to/from the US), they wanted to charge me $250 overweight fee, but were ok with me packing all the heavy stuff into a bag and having another carry-on...
Good luck :-)
Just know I love you tons and will keep you busy enough that you won't have time to miss your country TOOO much.
:)
big changes like that always seem surreal and impossible until after they happen, I think.
I understand how you are feeling right now. It's something that only people who have been there can ever truly understand.
I'm sure things will be great and fun when you move back but you will always love and miss Ireland.
have a good flight, erin! by the time you read this, you'll probably be back in the states. hope you're not TOO sad to leave. :-)
Enjoy your last night!
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